I have not been writing as much in my blog in the last three months or so. This is because - *gasp* - I'm happy!

I have re-engaged at work. Work has been a major issue for me in the past year and I've finally made a decision to stick with it for the next 13 months and during that time period to work on an exit strategy.

I have begun working out again and while I sometimes struggle with motivation (like today), I am really enjoying it. I am looking forward to my first sprint triathlon in August.

And best of all, I have a really amazing person in my life. And as scary as it is to start falling for someone - I am really enjoying it. When I am with Bob I don't think or worry about anything - I can let it all go and just enjoy our time together. That is something that I value more than you know - my mind is always whirring with thoughts - to be with someone who can help it be quiet is amazing. I was sitting on his couch last night, we were talking and I just looked at him and, I don't know, I was just so grateful and happy to be with him - right there at that moment.

So, for those of you who think after reading this blog that I am sad - I am not. I feel really great.

Take care, dear readers.

"The Miracle Isn't That I Finished, But That I Had The Courage To Start"

That is a well known quote from John "the Penguin" Bingham. If you are not familiar with him, he is a monthly contributor to Runners World Magazine that writes about running from the perspective of us mortal runners.



He uses this pharase to describe his running. But I think that it is a good phrase to describe almost anything.



For instance, I am starting to train for a "sprint" triathlon. This does not mean that I will sprint the whole thing - it is just the term for the shortest distance triathlon they have. In order to train for this, I am teaching myself how to swim. Yep, you read that right. Luckily, I have several friends who swim and have given me great advice (including Bob and Candace). I think the courage it takes to even approach this task is the true miracle.



I also think this phrase applies well to my personal life. As we get older and suffer heartbreaks it becomes more and more difficult to even contemplate entering a relationship, More and more difficult to imagine opening yourself up to another person. It isn't that the relationship survives that it is the miracle, I believe that the true miracle is finding the strength and desire inside you to open up to someone else.

I am experiencing that miracle right now. I am at the point where I want to open myself up to someone and make them a part of my life - and to become a part of theirs.

Take care, dear readers. I am enjoying my miracle.