Reflections from August

I know it is not over yet, but I predicted that August would be a make it or break it month for A and me. So, what's the verdict?

Break it.

There are several reasons, none of which had to do with the blackmail/smear campaign that S attempted late last week.

First, there is just no spark. What???? How could there be no spark - he's 28 with a killer body??? Have you lost your mind??? Maybe. But he feels like a really good friend or a brother - not like someone I want to throw to the bed and ravage.

Second, I know that he has the girl in TN and, I am only guessing, at least two here in town. I am not the kind of girl who can be #4 (or even #2) for long. I deserve to be #1.

Third, when I was in Florida I didn't miss him. Not one bit. I didn't wish he was there with me. I didn't want to hear his voice.

It has just run its course. I anticipate we'll transition back to being good friends nearly as seamlessly as we transitioned into whatever this was. No discussion needed.

And I'm fine. I'm starting to develop a real calmness for being by myself. I'm starting to develop an idea of what I want and deserve in a romantic relationship. Until then, I'm pleased to see that my entire week is free. And I am pleased to spend my free time with my close friends and my family.

I'm doing well and I'm thrilled to report it.

Take care, dear readers.