Breaking the Cycle

A is in the process of overhauling me as I have mentioned. He should probably charge me for this help.

Anyway, we had lunch in my office yesterday and he pinpointed a cycle that I get into - and he could not have pinpointed it any more accurately. It was all the stuff I know about myself but am afraid to admit sometimes even to myself and in my mind I didn't put it all together quite so well.

Now that I recognize this cycle and how it is keeping me from being the me I want to be - I am working on breaking the cycle. And today I did a good job. I really wanted something bad for me for lunch - but got something reasonable instead. I really wanted to take a nap instead of running my scheduled 3 miler - but I ran it. And now I feel pretty good about the day and the choices I made. I don't hate myself for eating poorly, for letting myself down by skipping a workout. I didn't allow a slip up to sabotage my entire day.

This is a good step forward for me.

I did something tragic this morning, however. I stepped on the scale. I was feeling good - feeling fitter and thought for sure some weight had come off. Nope. That is depressing.

But I am not letting it get me down. I know I am fitter. I can see my body changing just a little. I can see my face unbloat. I look better and feel better - and that is the point - not some numbers on a scale.

So, all in all - today was a good day.

Take care, dear readers - lets have another good one tomorrow!