Getting My Groove Back

Something about a break up makes you start thinking all kinds of negative thoughts about yourself - what if I were thinner, prettier, smarter, wittier, played the games better, hid my feelings more?

Those are useless thoughts. I am who I am and the exbf knew me well enough to either accept me and what I had to offer or not. He chose not. That's fine.

So now I'm working to get my groove back. I went on a date last night. It was a resounding OK. He was nice enough, good looking enough, and surprisingly wants to see me again (I actually yawned during the date - I was exhausted, I've had a big couple weeks...). But nothing was clicking and unfortunately thoughts of the exbf creeped in (I met the date somewhere that the exbf and I had been before and where he swears, though he is wrong, that he told me he loved me for the first time).

Anyway, I need to get my groove back. I think I need to date a player. Players are good at dating, good at getting what they want (generally sex), and can flatter you silly. I think I need a little bit of that right now - just to get me back on my feet and ready to date genuine nice guys again. A player emailed me out of the blue yesterday (not off a dating site, btw) and I am thinking I may need to play in that pond for a little bit. I am under no delusions that anything this man says is true - but, damn, it's nice to hear them again. It's been a while.

So, take care dear reader, I'll be swimming with the sharks.