Sabotage!!!!

If you had any doubt that I was either a) bat shit crazy or b) not ready to date, this anecdote should put those doubts at ease.

I went on one final date last night (yes, I said Monday was the last one, but this guy was in the pipeline at the time - this one really is the last one). I met him at a restaurant for drinks. He was good looking, well dressed, had a nice personality, and best of all there was some actual chemistry. Things were going fine. Then it all went off the rails. I sabotaged myself. I noticed that he was not talking as much as I was, so I tried to be quiet to allow him some room to talk. And he didn't. And then that bothered me. And then I started thinking about S and the day we sat on this very patio and had such a fantastic time. Then we got the check, I put in half of the money and abruptly got up and left. He told me that I needed change and I told him to keep it.

I have no idea what this poor man was left thinking. When I stopped talking he probably thought I was shutting down and didn't want to talk to him anymore. And then when I abruptly got up to leave - what a slap in the face.

I am such an IDIOT! Here was a perfectly nice, good looking, funny man and I treat him like shit. Charming. Just fucking charming.

I am a mess on the dating scene and all Atlanta singles would be better off if I just excused myself for a while...

On an up note - I really wanted to email S last night to wish him luck on the ALJ job. But I didn't. And I'm proud of myself for that.

On another up note - break ups appear to be great for weight loss...

And finally, I put in an application for a cocker spaniel/king cavalier mix puppy - one of 247 that were rescued from a puppy mill in Jackson Co. Cross your fingers for me!

Take care dear readers, I will be cutting Atlanta singles a break...