Closer to Fine

"The less I seek my source for some definitive, the closer I am to fine." - Indigo Girls

If you have been following my blog for any period of time you know how much the music and lyrics of the Indigo Girls have meant to me over the past year. This month marks a certain anniversary. I left my husband exactly one year ago this month.

I look back at the past year and so much has happened. So much strife, pain, and work, hard, hard work. I've wanted nothing more than to get "my" life back. But the trouble has always been - I don't know what my life looks like quite yet. And I certainly didn't know a year ago. It is impossible to get back to something when you don't know what it is.

I went to see the Indigo Girls last night. I was sitting there, under a clear blue sky, with two good friends, surrounded by a crowd of strong, independent women, and listening to my heartache being sung by these two amazing women. I was sure I'd cry - fall apart like I did at the Cure concert.

But I didn't. Something remarkable happened. I realized, for the first time in months, my jaw wasn't clenched. My body was relaxed. I was calm.

Surrounded by friends and looking forward to the possibilities my life holds - I felt closer to fine.

Take care, dear readers.