Timing is Everything

I think it is amazing how the universe sometimes knows what you need and sends it your way.

I had a rough day yesterday. Felt very down about myself, was reminded by a "friend" that most men my age who are "normal" are interested in dating women in their 20's therefore, he said, it is going to take you a lot longer to find someone.

*sigh* Gee, thanks. I'm too old for normal men my age. Fan-fucking-tastic.

So, I was feeling down. Cried. Missed S (yes, you all want to kill me, I know). Interestingly, didn't miss J. But that is neither here nor there. Last night I hosted a party and the actuary came as my guest. I thought I liked him, I don't. He aggravated me last night. I think that once he gets comfortable and behaves like "himself" that is when I don't like him. When he is walking on pins and needles I do - but that is no way to live.

So I have to cut him loose.

Also, neither here nor there.

Back to feeling kinda yucky. The phone rang. Of course, I didn't answer. Then my answering machine picked up and I heard a friendly voice from a long time ago. My old friend - L - is scampering away from Charleston to avoid the hurricane and is coming to hang out with me for the night. I look forward to seeing L, catching up, and again - like when I visited Cleveland - feel like what I felt like before all this happened. Before life got so fucking hard. Back when everything was ahead of me and I was sure I would not fail.

Take care, dear readers - I'll be stepping into my time machine.